uuum... potential record contract in the pipeline! can everyone say WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! 

(ok ok , its only a potential, doesn't mean it will happen! but still!)

Sadly enough... I don't even know where to start, or why I should bother. heh - I’m pretty sure this post will go unnoticed due to all my space friends being on different platforms. Oh well - for the first time in a very long time I feel like writing again. I don't even have anything of interest to say, but hell - if I can't be random in my own blog, where can I be completely inarticulate?

 

I have decided, after close on 5 years that should someone I like come along, then I think I might like to be in a relationship again. Yeah - it's taken a while, and that’s probably for the best, but I have to say that at the moment, there are very slim pickings! heh - maybe I am too fussy, but I won’t change that, I don't think that standards need to be dropped or my expectations lowered just because I'm in a place where I would feel confident going into a partnership. That’s right, I didn't call it a relationship, I called it a partnership - I think it’s more apt, I mean really, there is investment, it can be emotional or monetary, I'm hoping more so for the first option though considering the topic (even if gold diggers seem to get so much more out of life!... well till they are saggy and wrinkly and their tits are hanging round their knees - which isn't that far down because they have been so severely liposuctioned that they could wear their pubes as a moustache) and when you are investing a good chunk of yourself, you need to know that your investment is worthwhile. I'm not saying that you go in with a guarded heart; I'm saying that even if things don't work out, that what you take away from the overall picture, even if it takes a while for you to see that picture clearly, makes you look back and know it was worth the investment at the time. It took me a lot of time to heal from my last relationship (close on 5 years really, hehe) but looking back, I wouldn't change a thing, and I have nothing but happy fluffiness for the ex and his now wife. In fact, they came to my gig last night and I was pretty tickled about it. :)

 

And that right there is the reason I will not settle. not now, not ever. I look at quite a few people I know, and they are so scared of being alone that they will date anyone semi-decent that comes along. Doesn't matter if the person is or isn't what they are looking for. This is the reason that their relationships don't last, or why they are always looking for something bigger and better to come along. It's not fair to the other person, and if you can't enjoy your own company, as an individual, and be happy in the skin you are in - how can you expect anyone else too?

 

I also always wonder when the topic of getting hitched and popping out tiny beings should be brought up. I mean if I really like someone and they like me, before there is any sort of emotional investment, should the cards be laid out on the table? I only ask this because the norm is for all females to want to settle down, get married, have 2.5 children a dog and a white picket fence - but I don't want any of that! Hell if I thought standing in front of a microwave would nuke my uterus and close it down permanently I would so do it... but that annoying glass they put on the front makes that quite problematic.

 

**sigh** all these arb questions when there isn't even anyone at the moment that is really peaking my interest. There was... He has a girlfriend. I wish I had known that when we kissed. Ass.

 

On that note - I'm going to hit the sack.

 

much fluffiness to anyone who actually read this drivel and has not yet passed out from boredom.

me